By moonlight you toiled
before the blossoms you bring
from the dark earth you come forth
lips barely parting and it is magic you sing.
There were gnomes in the garden
while someone tossed sand in our plans
you asked La Luna to show the shining path
and for a moment she held the stars in her hand.
You told me the seed must rise
all alone in darkness of soil
all along reaching for something
our light is sovereign and royal.
How many years must we spend alone and depressed
and how many months did we have to spend in utero?
First comes the darkness then comes the light
for the most perfect world rises from deep within our marrow.
Good-bye Monsters
I'm closing the closet door on you now
never believed you were real anyways
safety behind covers not here somehow
closing my eyes behind pillows I prayed
of course I want everyone to like me!
it hurts deep when someone chooses not to
still not everyone is my enemy
as much as the hateful things I can do
you died and I hope to never miss out
on any paranormal clue of you
just a reminder to make me say 'wow'
a little something to help me get through
this season without you here by my side
but you really are so I will not hide
never believed you were real anyways
safety behind covers not here somehow
closing my eyes behind pillows I prayed
of course I want everyone to like me!
it hurts deep when someone chooses not to
still not everyone is my enemy
as much as the hateful things I can do
you died and I hope to never miss out
on any paranormal clue of you
just a reminder to make me say 'wow'
a little something to help me get through
this season without you here by my side
but you really are so I will not hide
Love is not eternal
Aphrodite has abandoned me
leaving me destitute
amidst my throes
Painful mornings I wake to
your fingers sculpting
my insides like stone
There is nothing at all left
except a classical
Grecian statue
That has frozen and fallen
crumbled and cold
in these ruins
Where you once flowered
gathering hearts
mine you desired
Romance the sweet sacrifice
that has sunken my ship
in Greek fire
Arrows sung a song long
of this sweet
love's defeat
When my mind still wishes
you were everyone
on the street
Not that I expected gods
to petition
my cause
To a dying mythology
where the goddess wins
and I have lost
leaving me destitute
amidst my throes
Painful mornings I wake to
your fingers sculpting
my insides like stone
There is nothing at all left
except a classical
Grecian statue
That has frozen and fallen
crumbled and cold
in these ruins
Where you once flowered
gathering hearts
mine you desired
Romance the sweet sacrifice
that has sunken my ship
in Greek fire
Arrows sung a song long
of this sweet
love's defeat
When my mind still wishes
you were everyone
on the street
Not that I expected gods
to petition
my cause
To a dying mythology
where the goddess wins
and I have lost
Kate Bush
You have crafted your name onto my heart
in letters of gold and calligraphy.
Your words and voice making for perfect art;
that has possessed my soul entirely.
I surrender to your aoidic charms.
From old recordings you grab and take hold.
When you are near I fear for my heart's harm;
my compass starts spinning out of control.
The record turning like an antique ghost
and I am haunted dancing all alone
in an empty ball, a toast to the host;
lost with you in the trees behind my home.
Searching for magic, you sing the answer;
spinning, spinning like an elfin dancer.
in letters of gold and calligraphy.
Your words and voice making for perfect art;
that has possessed my soul entirely.
I surrender to your aoidic charms.
From old recordings you grab and take hold.
When you are near I fear for my heart's harm;
my compass starts spinning out of control.
The record turning like an antique ghost
and I am haunted dancing all alone
in an empty ball, a toast to the host;
lost with you in the trees behind my home.
Searching for magic, you sing the answer;
spinning, spinning like an elfin dancer.
I dreamt of us as children
Behind the glass window we look outside
Rain falls rhapsodical across the land
Mother had ordered us to stay inside
You resorted using some sleight of hand
The skeleton key turning perfectly
Opening door revealing the wet world
Finger on your lips you left silently
Following you with my insides a-swirl
There was a war going on in the street
Stomping in puddles in wild attack
I do not remember wetting my feet
Sinful, lushy, soaking, skipping, and splash
So innocently we somehow held hands
And ever since then we've always been friends
Rain falls rhapsodical across the land
Mother had ordered us to stay inside
You resorted using some sleight of hand
The skeleton key turning perfectly
Opening door revealing the wet world
Finger on your lips you left silently
Following you with my insides a-swirl
There was a war going on in the street
Stomping in puddles in wild attack
I do not remember wetting my feet
Sinful, lushy, soaking, skipping, and splash
So innocently we somehow held hands
And ever since then we've always been friends
Rays of sunlight through stained glass
My love like glass
easy to see
touch me
and your fingerprints
will be left on me.
Smudged
with all that
is life
touch me
and I'll shatter easily.
All you've said
to me
of a love that is
I want to
shatter easily.
Our lives like sand
it has beaten me
quite easily
but after a while
we'll begin to sparkle.
Stained glass
one of life's
many mysteries
the way you shine
all these colors down on me.
easy to see
touch me
and your fingerprints
will be left on me.
Smudged
with all that
is life
touch me
and I'll shatter easily.
All you've said
to me
of a love that is
I want to
shatter easily.
Our lives like sand
it has beaten me
quite easily
but after a while
we'll begin to sparkle.
Stained glass
one of life's
many mysteries
the way you shine
all these colors down on me.
i love you with lots of exclamation points at the end!!!
when silence reigns all around
there comes a witching winter wind
i begin to sing my love for you
where it'll be carried by
thousand miles of night
to find you where you sleep
in these dreams
you'll see i'll come to you
dancing in some distant glade
moonlight hidden among the trees
where human hands come to meet
making faerie wings and heartbeats
and we ignore what is beneath
the fallen, dying leaf
the worm that crawls into the apple
of your eye; i die
thousand times in the night
to find you on some dark street
a precrash romance
only holding hands at first
i pledge my eternal
undying love to you princess
my queen, my everything
sharing both blessing-curse
looking for a place to hide
from the hunters who hunt our kind
looking for a place of night
a haven for our hearts and minds
their silhouettes seen in the trees
our sacred glade runs red with life
there comes a witching winter wind
i begin to sing my love for you
where it'll be carried by
thousand miles of night
to find you where you sleep
in these dreams
you'll see i'll come to you
dancing in some distant glade
moonlight hidden among the trees
where human hands come to meet
making faerie wings and heartbeats
and we ignore what is beneath
the fallen, dying leaf
the worm that crawls into the apple
of your eye; i die
thousand times in the night
to find you on some dark street
a precrash romance
only holding hands at first
i pledge my eternal
undying love to you princess
my queen, my everything
sharing both blessing-curse
looking for a place to hide
from the hunters who hunt our kind
looking for a place of night
a haven for our hearts and minds
their silhouettes seen in the trees
our sacred glade runs red with life
Public House: Second Submission
Page two-sixty-four
It was last year when I first saw her in the laundry room
There with her cat lost in a book and gone all too soon
Hoped for weeks to see her but never found my chance run in
Finally when the seasons changed I did get to see her again
She had the same book so I stood before her puzzled and asked
If it was actually that good or if it was such a hard task
She laughed and looked somewhere far while twirling her hair
Eyes so far away I wondered if she was really even there
Looking much closer I thought that I saw a tiny sparkle
She then smiled so wide with a happiness she'd never let go
She said it was her favorite and asked if I had read it before
I shrugged no so she read me all of page two-sixty-four
It was then and there I knew I had fallen deeply in love
Little did I know she always lived in the apartment above
It was last year when I first saw her in the laundry room
There with her cat lost in a book and gone all too soon
Hoped for weeks to see her but never found my chance run in
Finally when the seasons changed I did get to see her again
She had the same book so I stood before her puzzled and asked
If it was actually that good or if it was such a hard task
She laughed and looked somewhere far while twirling her hair
Eyes so far away I wondered if she was really even there
Looking much closer I thought that I saw a tiny sparkle
She then smiled so wide with a happiness she'd never let go
She said it was her favorite and asked if I had read it before
I shrugged no so she read me all of page two-sixty-four
It was then and there I knew I had fallen deeply in love
Little did I know she always lived in the apartment above
Deer head bounce above the thicket
where the sun and the wind
are dancing on water
shimmering flowing as
birds fill the creekside
with their songs of knowing
trees guard the banks
where we made our castle
all along the stone edges
where we have built
our final defenses
waters run clear
so you can see the bed
why should i be afraid to cross it
and far in the distant overhead
two eagles turn to face me directly
i was to them
as the wind in countless trees
one of many insects around me
and for a moment i was king
of the texas hill country
now the time has come to leave
we walk into the butterflies
by a flower circle
where the wind and the trees
falling leaves.
are dancing on water
shimmering flowing as
birds fill the creekside
with their songs of knowing
trees guard the banks
where we made our castle
all along the stone edges
where we have built
our final defenses
waters run clear
so you can see the bed
why should i be afraid to cross it
and far in the distant overhead
two eagles turn to face me directly
i was to them
as the wind in countless trees
one of many insects around me
and for a moment i was king
of the texas hill country
now the time has come to leave
we walk into the butterflies
by a flower circle
where the wind and the trees
falling leaves.
Laugh Lines
I was a baby that did not understand
this tree above me that was love.
As a child I ran past it,
and it...made me pause.
Reaching out
placing my hands upon you,
with eyes closed and head bowed,
then suddenly thrust back to look
at the sky.
I want to gaze at your every petal,
learn the secrets of all your lines,
my fingers now run down your face
as tears begin to run down mine.
If this is love why not come sooner?
Hidden all these years in glossy lies.
We all want your body and lovely face.
I want to see what is behind your eyes.
this tree above me that was love.
As a child I ran past it,
and it...made me pause.
Reaching out
placing my hands upon you,
with eyes closed and head bowed,
then suddenly thrust back to look
at the sky.
I want to gaze at your every petal,
learn the secrets of all your lines,
my fingers now run down your face
as tears begin to run down mine.
If this is love why not come sooner?
Hidden all these years in glossy lies.
We all want your body and lovely face.
I want to see what is behind your eyes.
A domestic scene during the holidays
hit you, hit me
i can tell how mad you are
by how hard your fist hits
how many drinks you drank
for you to hit less and less
before you passed out
the mathematics of abuse
i have figured out
hit yourself
say you'll die without me
so i stayed with your demons
your dogs and your damned
now you've grown old
and lost your fire
let the right one in
it is you i desire
now you are broken
and i am healing
now you are reaching
when i am living
but i always needed you
and you me
this is not how romance
should be
i saw as they lowered
the casket
as my hand fired
a silver revolver
but none will know
the hell we went through
and i pray to god
that heaven accepts me
and you
i can tell how mad you are
by how hard your fist hits
how many drinks you drank
for you to hit less and less
before you passed out
the mathematics of abuse
i have figured out
hit yourself
say you'll die without me
so i stayed with your demons
your dogs and your damned
now you've grown old
and lost your fire
let the right one in
it is you i desire
now you are broken
and i am healing
now you are reaching
when i am living
but i always needed you
and you me
this is not how romance
should be
i saw as they lowered
the casket
as my hand fired
a silver revolver
but none will know
the hell we went through
and i pray to god
that heaven accepts me
and you
have i told u how much i love u still?
the skies are darkening
rain is coming
sitting by an open window
my heart is drumming
wanting to burst forth
with something
i guess i want to have a dream
just don't know what it is
and i am not who i want to be
just a child whose mother says
things will be better at eighteen
there you were
looking out the car window
i could tell you were bored
or maybe it was just scared
and i knew i had to love you
more than i ever had
skies full of kites with streamers
hold on tight dreamers
to all that your heart desires
it's the glitter in the dark
the sliver of moon we can see
through very thick branches
i guess i want to have a dream
just don't know what it is
and i am not who i want to be
just a child whose mother says
things will be better at eighteen
rain is coming
sitting by an open window
my heart is drumming
wanting to burst forth
with something
i guess i want to have a dream
just don't know what it is
and i am not who i want to be
just a child whose mother says
things will be better at eighteen
there you were
looking out the car window
i could tell you were bored
or maybe it was just scared
and i knew i had to love you
more than i ever had
skies full of kites with streamers
hold on tight dreamers
to all that your heart desires
it's the glitter in the dark
the sliver of moon we can see
through very thick branches
i guess i want to have a dream
just don't know what it is
and i am not who i want to be
just a child whose mother says
things will be better at eighteen
Cord Around My Finger
no one is here now
i find myself all alone now
shoulders hunch down
when you're not around
finally these songs
whose lyrics you bled through
i can now listen to
and they're no longer about you
driving down the street
my head will no longer turn
to that place we once did meet
i'll never forget but i let go
when love dies
so many things become ghosts
when love dies
i can start to begin to hope
i find myself all alone now
shoulders hunch down
when you're not around
finally these songs
whose lyrics you bled through
i can now listen to
and they're no longer about you
driving down the street
my head will no longer turn
to that place we once did meet
i'll never forget but i let go
when love dies
so many things become ghosts
when love dies
i can start to begin to hope
You Can Have My Soul
eagle vs raven i was flying along
clipped my wings and began to descend
sky and floor blur dizzy and lost
in forest of thoughts unable to fly
i see the ground spinning
falling but too busy thinking
cannot spread my wings this time
the witching wood all around
magic glowed colors from the ground
whatever promises we make today
will mean nothing this time tomorrow
lion vs lamb always in the end
love's truth is none for it lies
by the hand that holds the apple
scared of a future without you in it
i see the world spinning
your memory comes in situations
when most painful to think of you
the stars cross without our names
destinies unfold never to be the same
imagine two ships crashing at sea
i see a rocky shoreline coming at me
clipped my wings and began to descend
sky and floor blur dizzy and lost
in forest of thoughts unable to fly
i see the ground spinning
falling but too busy thinking
cannot spread my wings this time
the witching wood all around
magic glowed colors from the ground
whatever promises we make today
will mean nothing this time tomorrow
lion vs lamb always in the end
love's truth is none for it lies
by the hand that holds the apple
scared of a future without you in it
i see the world spinning
your memory comes in situations
when most painful to think of you
the stars cross without our names
destinies unfold never to be the same
imagine two ships crashing at sea
i see a rocky shoreline coming at me
There is a castle down the block
thirty years ago to this day
a man fell hurting his head
some said he was never the same
finally even his wife had left
spending time under the sun
on outside walls putting stucco
neighbors shook their heads
until he revealed his castle
trumpets blared some early AM
welcoming all to the coronation
most arrived mad and unpleasant
but the king had one beheaded
next came a moat then those sharks
this was of course all imaginary
but defending the castle he did
til he died just sad and lonely.
a man fell hurting his head
some said he was never the same
finally even his wife had left
spending time under the sun
on outside walls putting stucco
neighbors shook their heads
until he revealed his castle
trumpets blared some early AM
welcoming all to the coronation
most arrived mad and unpleasant
but the king had one beheaded
next came a moat then those sharks
this was of course all imaginary
but defending the castle he did
til he died just sad and lonely.
my love
she wears her eyes full of wonder
as city streets turned into trees
the sky grows on you in open road
we're becoming one with the breeze
listening to nirvana glad to be alive
you make me want to kiss the ground
suddenly the deer that were hidden
have now begun to appear all around
we stop the car by some huge hill
get out running to climb up laughing
crystal clear skies we're out the city
all these lost years we're finally catching
like butterflies of your youth
like dragonflies on your hand
she brings flowers to the grave
and suddenly I'm alive and can understand
your love
as city streets turned into trees
the sky grows on you in open road
we're becoming one with the breeze
listening to nirvana glad to be alive
you make me want to kiss the ground
suddenly the deer that were hidden
have now begun to appear all around
we stop the car by some huge hill
get out running to climb up laughing
crystal clear skies we're out the city
all these lost years we're finally catching
like butterflies of your youth
like dragonflies on your hand
she brings flowers to the grave
and suddenly I'm alive and can understand
your love
The Public House: First Submission
Kate's lonely fate
Across the balcony in Room 208
Lives a lovely girl named Kate
She has two cats and a date
Telling them bye as she runs late
Out the door one slipped away
Her house empty until the next day
On her return she feeds the cats
She cuts her self just to relax
Hoping one day to not come back
To this house where something lacks
Across the balcony in Room 208
Lives a lovely girl named Kate
She has two cats and a date
Telling them bye as she runs late
Out the door one slipped away
Her house empty until the next day
On her return she feeds the cats
She cuts her self just to relax
Hoping one day to not come back
To this house where something lacks
Moon Friends
with Mickey Mouse and E.T.
we can fly and be free
on the moon we can jump
into another galaxy
you went to the dark side
and we will always be waiting
with those who will be friends
on the light side of the moon
we can fly and be free
on the moon we can jump
into another galaxy
you went to the dark side
and we will always be waiting
with those who will be friends
on the light side of the moon
We stepped in a flower circle
so busy looking at each other
the butterflies began to dance
you begin to spin in delight
with your whole body angled
from turned neck to ankle
as if twisted for flight
your eyes look far beyond
the edges of the Universe
and we hope our rockets
will take us beyond the stars
the butterflies began to dance
you begin to spin in delight
with your whole body angled
from turned neck to ankle
as if twisted for flight
your eyes look far beyond
the edges of the Universe
and we hope our rockets
will take us beyond the stars
Someone snuck dream dust in my juice
i almost forgot
until you crept up on
me
oh happiness
how did you get so far
worry me
my mouth
is suddenly full
of joy come back to me
my eyes
feel so loose in my head
they only look up to the stars
clap
if you know the words
to the song of life and its melody
sing
all alone or with family
we are related to the trees and bees
and animals
inside of me
return to become children of this world
until you crept up on
me
oh happiness
how did you get so far
worry me
my mouth
is suddenly full
of joy come back to me
my eyes
feel so loose in my head
they only look up to the stars
clap
if you know the words
to the song of life and its melody
sing
all alone or with family
we are related to the trees and bees
and animals
inside of me
return to become children of this world
What do red doors in movies mean?
and when the dead return to us
why do they always come in groups?
except when you came it was quite alone
fires in rome
burned down my childhood home
i hope they play the fiddle at my funeral too
death can seem such a sweet release
but none of us truly know
recycle my heart it is biodegradable
we cannot stop the snows from melting
as much as their coming too
but we can celebrate all with joy
now these stairs some call life
will you walk down with me?
'cause there's a dragon in the basement
monsters down the hallway
and who knows what is outside the house
but i will open up my window
in the middle of the night
and welcome you to my heart
we may not live but die in the dark
so if you see me walking down the road
with death at my side just let it go
this is how it is supposed to be
why do they always come in groups?
except when you came it was quite alone
fires in rome
burned down my childhood home
i hope they play the fiddle at my funeral too
death can seem such a sweet release
but none of us truly know
recycle my heart it is biodegradable
we cannot stop the snows from melting
as much as their coming too
but we can celebrate all with joy
now these stairs some call life
will you walk down with me?
'cause there's a dragon in the basement
monsters down the hallway
and who knows what is outside the house
but i will open up my window
in the middle of the night
and welcome you to my heart
we may not live but die in the dark
so if you see me walking down the road
with death at my side just let it go
this is how it is supposed to be
Unexplained Romance
You are so new
i want to know about you
you are so new
oh my whatsoever shall i do
with you
your laughter
sweet burning incense
the air is so alive
from the back of your throat
words drip
your laughter
takes me rising in the sky
lucy i'm so high
lifting your shift a bit
the magnets
stick to your skin
i so want to get in
+ + + + + + + + +
will we stick
or repel oh yes do tell
about your experience
acting like skeptics
deep down we believed
at least
i was not the only one
to see
you turning on the stars
that were not there before
dancing alone
but a shadow person
is there with you
the flowers had died
and you held and believed
roses blooming
long after harvest tide
please don't die
+++++++++
emergency waiting rooms
are just so small
i cannot believe
this is where my world ends
all in you my friend
until the doctors
returned with results
she had always been dead
arrest this perverted lout
guilty beyond doubt
the smile inside
as you appeared by my side
no need to explain
i am dying tomorrow
to be with you
no need hun
you also died so long past.
i want to know about you
you are so new
oh my whatsoever shall i do
with you
your laughter
sweet burning incense
the air is so alive
from the back of your throat
words drip
your laughter
takes me rising in the sky
lucy i'm so high
lifting your shift a bit
the magnets
stick to your skin
i so want to get in
+ + + + + + + + +
will we stick
or repel oh yes do tell
about your experience
acting like skeptics
deep down we believed
at least
i was not the only one
to see
you turning on the stars
that were not there before
dancing alone
but a shadow person
is there with you
the flowers had died
and you held and believed
roses blooming
long after harvest tide
please don't die
+++++++++
emergency waiting rooms
are just so small
i cannot believe
this is where my world ends
all in you my friend
until the doctors
returned with results
she had always been dead
arrest this perverted lout
guilty beyond doubt
the smile inside
as you appeared by my side
no need to explain
i am dying tomorrow
to be with you
no need hun
you also died so long past.
Paradise is nothing but sand
in my soul
still, still waters run deep
a kingdom
lies somewhere buried beneath
a king
holds court among empty gardens
contemplating
the night he fell to sunken shores
two ships passing
waves came crashing on those on deck
down below a queen
her eyes forests of true green
from the land of illyria
her heart as pure as her hair silken
missing soul return
exhale and feel your spirit rise
breathe in this world
exhaling again my insides soar
in my heart
raging waters rush, rush
lost at sea
truly confused without compass
pray to you i pray to god
i just thought?
we still crashed
i guess love we all forgot
two ships crashing
the jolly roger tattered on high
what was it all for?
such a romantic war
over before it began
alone now here in my garden of sand
still, still waters run deep
a kingdom
lies somewhere buried beneath
a king
holds court among empty gardens
contemplating
the night he fell to sunken shores
two ships passing
waves came crashing on those on deck
down below a queen
her eyes forests of true green
from the land of illyria
her heart as pure as her hair silken
missing soul return
exhale and feel your spirit rise
breathe in this world
exhaling again my insides soar
in my heart
raging waters rush, rush
lost at sea
truly confused without compass
pray to you i pray to god
i just thought?
we still crashed
i guess love we all forgot
two ships crashing
the jolly roger tattered on high
what was it all for?
such a romantic war
over before it began
alone now here in my garden of sand
We walk up the ladder
there is always doubt
before a chosen death
a plan well rehearsed
take in deep breaths
stood here time before
the rope is rough
like the loneliness
just have to be tough
enough to jump now
let go of the world
bye i think i want
to change my mind
legs dangle it's OK
this same feeling
for all my life
i can finally relax
let go but to where?
then i saw the angels
fled one who cried
looked like my mother
demons in every shape
of every hurt of
all pain of my life
dancing the death
unable to let go
this same feeling
for all my afterlife
i'm hanging help!
before a chosen death
a plan well rehearsed
take in deep breaths
stood here time before
the rope is rough
like the loneliness
just have to be tough
enough to jump now
let go of the world
bye i think i want
to change my mind
legs dangle it's OK
this same feeling
for all my life
i can finally relax
let go but to where?
then i saw the angels
fled one who cried
looked like my mother
demons in every shape
of every hurt of
all pain of my life
dancing the death
unable to let go
this same feeling
for all my afterlife
i'm hanging help!
Something to look forward to
It has been five years and five days
Since you slipped away
For me it is just like yesterday
Because for the first time
I left behind the anger of it all
Now I'm just left with sorrow
Chorus: But it's OK
'Cause I know fate
And you'll be on the other side
Just waiting to tell me everything's alright
And all that pain don't exist here
We were always on the outside
Trying to get in
Poor kids
Ain't so pretty
But we did what needed
Acted sometimes like things we ain't
Chorus x1
My soul so ugly
I'm a sinner
My hurt comes out in song
Sorry for hurting ya
I got hurt pretty bad myself
Still you never did me no wrong
Chorus x2
Since you slipped away
For me it is just like yesterday
Because for the first time
I left behind the anger of it all
Now I'm just left with sorrow
Chorus: But it's OK
'Cause I know fate
And you'll be on the other side
Just waiting to tell me everything's alright
And all that pain don't exist here
We were always on the outside
Trying to get in
Poor kids
Ain't so pretty
But we did what needed
Acted sometimes like things we ain't
Chorus x1
My soul so ugly
I'm a sinner
My hurt comes out in song
Sorry for hurting ya
I got hurt pretty bad myself
Still you never did me no wrong
Chorus x2
Empty
we were scared
children of this city
in an age
where childhood ended
we met in class
found our way across town
on the bus bound
to the cemetery
where we visited
our dead baby
this plot is empty
but her fate's the same
she will visit us
lingering
in remembered dream
all is not as it seems
there is no blame
a child can assign
her soul freed
it is ours now we must find
children of this city
in an age
where childhood ended
we met in class
found our way across town
on the bus bound
to the cemetery
where we visited
our dead baby
this plot is empty
but her fate's the same
she will visit us
lingering
in remembered dream
all is not as it seems
there is no blame
a child can assign
her soul freed
it is ours now we must find
Do you like my face?
Growing this distant
from you
seemed far off
when I was a mere child
and you were just a thought
running through the forest
I stop
this far away
I give my heart
to the trees and they watch
carrying me in light away
I died
with no one by my side
just thoughts of you
to carry me across the divide
I've never forgotten you
in life
it lasted quite long
without you
and now I'm happy here.
from you
seemed far off
when I was a mere child
and you were just a thought
running through the forest
I stop
this far away
I give my heart
to the trees and they watch
carrying me in light away
I died
with no one by my side
just thoughts of you
to carry me across the divide
I've never forgotten you
in life
it lasted quite long
without you
and now I'm happy here.
Silke
It's hard to imagine
the rest of this life
not knowing of your grace.
Part of me is in the grave
and I'll forever grieve
while a rest forever lives
to regret mistakes.
Back then
fought so hard not to lose you
when you were already mine.
Still fighting
but you've been gone now
for quite some time.
Finally
I honestly cried
just for the loss of you
without panic and its fire
without fear of losing you
for all of it has come true.
Haunted by hurting your
heart. It was unconditional
golden light that loved
without knowing another thing.
You gave yourself
with a rose's purity
when pierced by my thorn
protecting me from your own
your greatest concern.
I'll always need your love
I'll have to live without
guess this is what growing old
is also about.
the rest of this life
not knowing of your grace.
Part of me is in the grave
and I'll forever grieve
while a rest forever lives
to regret mistakes.
Back then
fought so hard not to lose you
when you were already mine.
Still fighting
but you've been gone now
for quite some time.
Finally
I honestly cried
just for the loss of you
without panic and its fire
without fear of losing you
for all of it has come true.
Haunted by hurting your
heart. It was unconditional
golden light that loved
without knowing another thing.
You gave yourself
with a rose's purity
when pierced by my thorn
protecting me from your own
your greatest concern.
I'll always need your love
I'll have to live without
guess this is what growing old
is also about.
Catch me
I'm falling
have been for so long.
Now I can see the ground getting closer
and I'm thinking I'm ready to land.
I'm smiling
'cause I can see you.
Never thought we'd be this close again
no longer in some far away land.
Tired wing
no longer with a will
to fight against cloud and wind
take me to ground I'm ready to land.
So I sing
this close and ready to crash
grateful that it'll be near you
not in some far away distant land.
have been for so long.
Now I can see the ground getting closer
and I'm thinking I'm ready to land.
I'm smiling
'cause I can see you.
Never thought we'd be this close again
no longer in some far away land.
Tired wing
no longer with a will
to fight against cloud and wind
take me to ground I'm ready to land.
So I sing
this close and ready to crash
grateful that it'll be near you
not in some far away distant land.
Just practicing
Swords are inside me
clashing
metal against memory
now I see the value
of winners and losers
clashing
their swords inside me.
The sky has failed me
yet again
I am clouds
when it is sunshine
slowly destroying me
yet again
I have failed myself.
Words are meaningless
we hide
our true feelings
behind meaningless phrases
and stupid labels
we hide
behind meaningless words.
clashing
metal against memory
now I see the value
of winners and losers
clashing
their swords inside me.
The sky has failed me
yet again
I am clouds
when it is sunshine
slowly destroying me
yet again
I have failed myself.
Words are meaningless
we hide
our true feelings
behind meaningless phrases
and stupid labels
we hide
behind meaningless words.
A Roadside Memorial
Three miles down the road
where you died so long ago
I whisper all my secrets
to your soul on a telephone pole.
Could not stay in between
the white lines, driving
seventy blown out your mind,
never to see seventeen.
I loved you as much as
my teenage self could.
I seen your darkness
it is of many colors
and I seen your light
there is but one.
On that night we first met
in your dad's stolen car
we did not get very far
and I could tell
you would never stop running
away. We argued on the phone
you wanted to control me
and I never really left
your side by this cross
on the side of the road.
† † † † † † † † † † † † † †
where you died so long ago
I whisper all my secrets
to your soul on a telephone pole.
Could not stay in between
the white lines, driving
seventy blown out your mind,
never to see seventeen.
I loved you as much as
my teenage self could.
I seen your darkness
it is of many colors
and I seen your light
there is but one.
On that night we first met
in your dad's stolen car
we did not get very far
and I could tell
you would never stop running
away. We argued on the phone
you wanted to control me
and I never really left
your side by this cross
on the side of the road.
† † † † † † † † † † † † † †
Could it be any other way?
Worry not if these moments
should somehow feel more special
your heart is cold how can it know?
Accept what is that in time all grows.
Light music, night traffic, whirring fan
sink into them quietly with your hair in my hand
inside I danced
under the new moon how can you know?
We were just children
the last time we felt this close.
Glowing computer screen held these words
as you shone serene
sighing in your sleep and in this moment
I knew everything was perfect.
It was the small moments like this
I have desperately waited for like rain
and now that they are here
I will never let them go
until the day we return to the stars
on the other side of space and time
where each other we will find.
should somehow feel more special
your heart is cold how can it know?
Accept what is that in time all grows.
Light music, night traffic, whirring fan
sink into them quietly with your hair in my hand
inside I danced
under the new moon how can you know?
We were just children
the last time we felt this close.
Glowing computer screen held these words
as you shone serene
sighing in your sleep and in this moment
I knew everything was perfect.
It was the small moments like this
I have desperately waited for like rain
and now that they are here
I will never let them go
until the day we return to the stars
on the other side of space and time
where each other we will find.
Looking out the window
there are dead crows on the lawn
curious children poked with sticks.
Someone scolded them about disease.
An old man said, "It's a sign,"
his wife's eyes hinted at disbelief
even if she needed one the most.
A small girl had not moved from
the middle of the grass. Disbelief
fell in snow-flaked silken tears.
Someone went towards her but
the old man's hand reached
out towards their arm.
Cupped in tiny fingers
a miracle began and chirped
as one by one each bird flew away.
curious children poked with sticks.
Someone scolded them about disease.
An old man said, "It's a sign,"
his wife's eyes hinted at disbelief
even if she needed one the most.
A small girl had not moved from
the middle of the grass. Disbelief
fell in snow-flaked silken tears.
Someone went towards her but
the old man's hand reached
out towards their arm.
Cupped in tiny fingers
a miracle began and chirped
as one by one each bird flew away.
Please, calm down hunny.
Can't you see my love is as gentle as this breath of air.
If you won't be calm enough to listen you might miss it
and your flames are robbing me of all my oxygen.
The same breath of air is as powerful as life.
Don't turn your back there is so much more
in my soft touch if you will just let it.
Your hands don't hit me neither do they love.
Your heart is only lost but one day you'll see onshore
this lamp that burns 'til your ship finds it way back to me.
Then you'll feel my love with every breath of air.
See that when two hands come together they make wings
that will lift you above every dark thing.
If you won't be calm enough to listen you might miss it
and your flames are robbing me of all my oxygen.
The same breath of air is as powerful as life.
Don't turn your back there is so much more
in my soft touch if you will just let it.
Your hands don't hit me neither do they love.
Your heart is only lost but one day you'll see onshore
this lamp that burns 'til your ship finds it way back to me.
Then you'll feel my love with every breath of air.
See that when two hands come together they make wings
that will lift you above every dark thing.
Inspired by the Joust
I.
At the round table every lord equal
nobility and honor our valorous ideals
both before love and lady victory alike.
"Not I!" Not this knight who's forsaken seal.
Only pledge is to self and desire.
My vows are secret hidden among men.
I wear a badge of chivalry for power.
If to advantage I'll betray kith and kin.
If not I shall be loyal to all
if all remains serving my purpose.
Left-handed treachery, skulduggery employed
to take the fair lady and all royal purses.
Among the bandits and whores
I stayed chiefly in the latter.
Raising rebels blessed by sorcery
all enchanted, arrow to scaling ladder.
Under the dark moon we made assault.
To attack the castle we filled in the moat
swell with bodies of the king's realmsmen
here is your duke, your count, and your pope.
The battering rams crashed open walls
as the trooping men crashed open maidens.
Old ones trampled and children were taken.
Soon our pockets will be silver and gold laden.
II.
Red cord in a window below the spire.
A princess herself behind vile treachery.
She crosses a leg looking down her nails calmly
while death resounds a dance down her own gallery.
On her balcony messenger doves released;
outside her door palace guard fall in turn.
Sorrow on painted face not a single tear true
in bridal lace awaiting arrival of her new sovereign.
The rebel lord appeared in her chambers
embracing their secret compact now unveiled.
But her kiss poisoned and in her skirt hidden daggers
proclaiming to the fallen knight how his plan had failed.
"I have been under terror of a tyrant
do not be foolish to think I'd suffer yet another?"
With false steps from her craft he lunged in sudden rage.
Dodging to the side she poked him deftly with twin daggers.
"By tonight I shall seduce your captains
with that I allow you to die before your queen.
By this time tomorrow cousins from across the sea
shall set on land to seek out every last of your fiends."
Then a noble son appeared at her door
our princess ran right into his arms quickly.
They said goodbye on his return they would marry
then she let him out from her window to escape safely.
III.
A rebel captain risen in rank
ravaged queen on four poster bed.
Her only thought of contacting the cunning lady
at first crow for tea of removing this impurity instead.
Within the hall of the keep
a perversion of royal coronation
commenced. A recreant is crowned king
as his new queen plots the welcomed invasion.
The host content in their work.
Every noble defender's head on a pike.
They began the feast with only the dead
to stand watch on the tower. Such horrendous sight
began to unfold as they dined.
Serving girls preferred over the main course
in the positions wine forms in the minds of men
which turned queen into whore in her very own court.
Hope abandoned so little protest
soft cries now heard until our queen
made the sign and her ladies sealed the doors
the rebel host left to die alone to only their screams.
Distant cousins come to see the keep in flames
with a future king who greets his queen with a kiss
and as our story ends never try to quite forget that
if you plan to capture a castle beware of the plotting princess.
At the round table every lord equal
nobility and honor our valorous ideals
both before love and lady victory alike.
"Not I!" Not this knight who's forsaken seal.
Only pledge is to self and desire.
My vows are secret hidden among men.
I wear a badge of chivalry for power.
If to advantage I'll betray kith and kin.
If not I shall be loyal to all
if all remains serving my purpose.
Left-handed treachery, skulduggery employed
to take the fair lady and all royal purses.
Among the bandits and whores
I stayed chiefly in the latter.
Raising rebels blessed by sorcery
all enchanted, arrow to scaling ladder.
Under the dark moon we made assault.
To attack the castle we filled in the moat
swell with bodies of the king's realmsmen
here is your duke, your count, and your pope.
The battering rams crashed open walls
as the trooping men crashed open maidens.
Old ones trampled and children were taken.
Soon our pockets will be silver and gold laden.
II.
Red cord in a window below the spire.
A princess herself behind vile treachery.
She crosses a leg looking down her nails calmly
while death resounds a dance down her own gallery.
On her balcony messenger doves released;
outside her door palace guard fall in turn.
Sorrow on painted face not a single tear true
in bridal lace awaiting arrival of her new sovereign.
The rebel lord appeared in her chambers
embracing their secret compact now unveiled.
But her kiss poisoned and in her skirt hidden daggers
proclaiming to the fallen knight how his plan had failed.
"I have been under terror of a tyrant
do not be foolish to think I'd suffer yet another?"
With false steps from her craft he lunged in sudden rage.
Dodging to the side she poked him deftly with twin daggers.
"By tonight I shall seduce your captains
with that I allow you to die before your queen.
By this time tomorrow cousins from across the sea
shall set on land to seek out every last of your fiends."
Then a noble son appeared at her door
our princess ran right into his arms quickly.
They said goodbye on his return they would marry
then she let him out from her window to escape safely.
III.
A rebel captain risen in rank
ravaged queen on four poster bed.
Her only thought of contacting the cunning lady
at first crow for tea of removing this impurity instead.
Within the hall of the keep
a perversion of royal coronation
commenced. A recreant is crowned king
as his new queen plots the welcomed invasion.
The host content in their work.
Every noble defender's head on a pike.
They began the feast with only the dead
to stand watch on the tower. Such horrendous sight
began to unfold as they dined.
Serving girls preferred over the main course
in the positions wine forms in the minds of men
which turned queen into whore in her very own court.
Hope abandoned so little protest
soft cries now heard until our queen
made the sign and her ladies sealed the doors
the rebel host left to die alone to only their screams.
Distant cousins come to see the keep in flames
with a future king who greets his queen with a kiss
and as our story ends never try to quite forget that
if you plan to capture a castle beware of the plotting princess.
Bonnie and Died
This is the crazy life
Fast guns, fast lives
Nineteen thirty-two
With just a small crew
Held up a bank in Nevada
Money was a whole lot’a
More than cards at casino
I shot two men in Reno
Yeah to watch them die
Look at me now I’m so high
Could care less about the cash
My blood pumps in the mad dash
Public enemy number none
I’m not the only one on the run
Even if the cops catch me
In mind I’ll still be running
But not this time, I’ll be gunning
This is the other side
Fast guns, we all died
Nineteen thirty-through
Me against the world and you
When I got to the gates
Peter started to hate
So I pulled out the Tommy
Still hell appeared all around me
So I still started to fire
Satan had that crown I desired
Got a few demons then cast out
This violence is what I’m all about
So my spirit wanders the earth
The mark of Cain of the cursed
Whisper to mortals a desire to violence
Thirteen, Fourteen, People, and Folk
Kill in my name and send me your ghosts
Fast guns, fast lives
Nineteen thirty-two
With just a small crew
Held up a bank in Nevada
Money was a whole lot’a
More than cards at casino
I shot two men in Reno
Yeah to watch them die
Look at me now I’m so high
Could care less about the cash
My blood pumps in the mad dash
Public enemy number none
I’m not the only one on the run
Even if the cops catch me
In mind I’ll still be running
But not this time, I’ll be gunning
This is the other side
Fast guns, we all died
Nineteen thirty-through
Me against the world and you
When I got to the gates
Peter started to hate
So I pulled out the Tommy
Still hell appeared all around me
So I still started to fire
Satan had that crown I desired
Got a few demons then cast out
This violence is what I’m all about
So my spirit wanders the earth
The mark of Cain of the cursed
Whisper to mortals a desire to violence
Thirteen, Fourteen, People, and Folk
Kill in my name and send me your ghosts
It is around three in the morning and
the pavement and concrete outside
are covered in shiny wetness
and even if I feel rather old
the world appears newly born.
The fog are a million tiny dancers
gathering around each street lamp
and the lights are all fighting
to illuminate the sparkling ground
no matter that each one wears a halo.
The shadows appear a shade less dim
and all the stars are hiding tonight
amidst the lords and ladies of the midst.
I close my eyes and feel their kiss
and wonder if I breathe enough fog in
will it too hide and drown my sorrows
or help me in wanting to wake up tomorrow.
are covered in shiny wetness
and even if I feel rather old
the world appears newly born.
The fog are a million tiny dancers
gathering around each street lamp
and the lights are all fighting
to illuminate the sparkling ground
no matter that each one wears a halo.
The shadows appear a shade less dim
and all the stars are hiding tonight
amidst the lords and ladies of the midst.
I close my eyes and feel their kiss
and wonder if I breathe enough fog in
will it too hide and drown my sorrows
or help me in wanting to wake up tomorrow.
Conversations with Selene on the Theory of Intransparency
For so long I’ve tried escaping your memory
You lead a wild hunt that made me its quarry
In just the few seconds that wind rushed by
Outside my window singing a lullaby
And I'm caught up again for the night
Broken heart scattered among earth lights
Embraced by celestial moon before dawn’s pass
Studying fragile moonbeams on blades of grass
To Her Serene Selenity I did trust and confess
Asking her how to get rid of this loneliness
She asked what I’d put in that empty place instead
Then upon the new moon I'd break out the egg
Suddenly understanding like moonrise at midnight
Descended upon me like a dying man’s last sight
That I've lost my way to connect with loved one's
Even though I've always been a favorite son
Now to figure out this thing called family
Is what the Universe has been trying to tell me
You lead a wild hunt that made me its quarry
In just the few seconds that wind rushed by
Outside my window singing a lullaby
And I'm caught up again for the night
Broken heart scattered among earth lights
Embraced by celestial moon before dawn’s pass
Studying fragile moonbeams on blades of grass
To Her Serene Selenity I did trust and confess
Asking her how to get rid of this loneliness
She asked what I’d put in that empty place instead
Then upon the new moon I'd break out the egg
Suddenly understanding like moonrise at midnight
Descended upon me like a dying man’s last sight
That I've lost my way to connect with loved one's
Even though I've always been a favorite son
Now to figure out this thing called family
Is what the Universe has been trying to tell me
On the flight of fallen leaves and other circumstances
Casting aside old ways when it makes sense
Are times I learn Wisdom that changes me
As the tree so painful and lovely its loss of leaves
A gentle fall before rebirth; we're buried quite deep
In a moment an ear of corn in silence reaped
A sudden wind through leaves gently speaks
Like soft cries at the funeral of Persephone
Let's hold hands and dance in endless circle
All that takes place under the harvest Moon
Glowing bright coming closer nearer land
Guiding light before coming of winter’s night
I sing among endless stars in your company
Some stay inside when the veil’s the thinnest
Others on faith care take loved one's graves
A few will wander far and a few will wander lost
Taking flight and form at the cauldron of Ceridwen
Are times I learn Wisdom that changes me
As the tree so painful and lovely its loss of leaves
A gentle fall before rebirth; we're buried quite deep
In a moment an ear of corn in silence reaped
A sudden wind through leaves gently speaks
Like soft cries at the funeral of Persephone
Let's hold hands and dance in endless circle
All that takes place under the harvest Moon
Glowing bright coming closer nearer land
Guiding light before coming of winter’s night
I sing among endless stars in your company
Some stay inside when the veil’s the thinnest
Others on faith care take loved one's graves
A few will wander far and a few will wander lost
Taking flight and form at the cauldron of Ceridwen
Rose of Sharon
My lovely rose of Sharon; the lily of the valley. I will always cast my tent next to yours. We will share the same sky and stars until the day one of us crosses and I will wait by the fountain, wind, and shadow until I then see you again.
It is not enough to see the stars but to become them and for that we must close our eyes deeply. All the world under the stars travels at its own pace and we can only choose which direction but not the speed as we sail across all of time and space.
I find my life in your eyes and purpose when I hold you deeply in my arms or our fingers entwine. I accept you exactly as you are for you are my whole world. My rabbit running across the sky. My conch shell; all that I hear when I hold you up to my ear is sacred.
It is not enough to see the stars but to become them and for that we must close our eyes deeply. All the world under the stars travels at its own pace and we can only choose which direction but not the speed as we sail across all of time and space.
I find my life in your eyes and purpose when I hold you deeply in my arms or our fingers entwine. I accept you exactly as you are for you are my whole world. My rabbit running across the sky. My conch shell; all that I hear when I hold you up to my ear is sacred.
Sailors, explorers, soldiers, and sons
his story began long ago
when he told his lovely wife
that it was time for him to go
off to sea, off to make a life
there was none to be had around here
i'll return when i can and send silver often
off to explore the unknown land dear
pray for me that nothing awful happens
i'll send for you to come to our new home
off to the war for duty and nation
do not forget about me when i am gone
i'll e-mail and call so much is going on hun
and if i should never return
just remember i did it all for you
to have the best life you possibly can
i never wanted to leave you
somepart of me shall always remain
goodbye sailors, explorers, soldiers, and sons
i pray for your safe return...
when he told his lovely wife
that it was time for him to go
off to sea, off to make a life
there was none to be had around here
i'll return when i can and send silver often
off to explore the unknown land dear
pray for me that nothing awful happens
i'll send for you to come to our new home
off to the war for duty and nation
do not forget about me when i am gone
i'll e-mail and call so much is going on hun
and if i should never return
just remember i did it all for you
to have the best life you possibly can
i never wanted to leave you
somepart of me shall always remain
goodbye sailors, explorers, soldiers, and sons
i pray for your safe return...
Making the flowers come true
"god is everywhere!"
the sage once said
others looked everywhere
except within themselves
"the devil has come!"
the pastor bestowed
others looked at others
but never at themselves
i see god shining in you
i see ten thousand of his angels
everyday making flowers come true
why does god hate
everyone we hate
no longer in god's image
we made god into ours
i find myself
all alone again
but i find myself
when i look at you
i see god shining in you
i see ten thousand of his angels
everyday making flowers come true
the sage once said
others looked everywhere
except within themselves
"the devil has come!"
the pastor bestowed
others looked at others
but never at themselves
i see god shining in you
i see ten thousand of his angels
everyday making flowers come true
why does god hate
everyone we hate
no longer in god's image
we made god into ours
i find myself
all alone again
but i find myself
when i look at you
i see god shining in you
i see ten thousand of his angels
everyday making flowers come true
Almas Gemelas
mommy i'm in love with a ghost
you don't know her
she lived here so long ago
she stayed in my room
slept under this same window
she will return soon
staring 'to the night sky
through the trees
we will reach the stars
her clothes are kind of old
she says the oddest of words
but most of all we're twin souls
she understands my head
touches deeply into my heart
but mommy i think i am also dead
you don't know her
she lived here so long ago
she stayed in my room
slept under this same window
she will return soon
staring 'to the night sky
through the trees
we will reach the stars
her clothes are kind of old
she says the oddest of words
but most of all we're twin souls
she understands my head
touches deeply into my heart
but mommy i think i am also dead
Among the tribe
Gathering her worried hands on her gown
Her eyes dropped once in the middle of the crowd
Their rage filled eyes greedily devouring the last of her hopes
Their fancy dresses and bobbing heads made her feel quite peasant
Shaken-fisted men shouting with shook heads
In the silence created by the glaring good women
Their arms crossed rolling their eyes towards the cross
Ignoring the one being crucified by their cruel sight and condemnation
A young girl danced before the crowd
To some silly song she had in her head
Claiming instead she was ensorceled by the hag
They all laughed and roared in some embracing ecstasy
The hammer fell against the table
The sacrificial ceremony had officially begun
A witch on a stake her eyes now closing so tight
Only to open again among the wood and all her lost friends tonight
Her eyes dropped once in the middle of the crowd
Their rage filled eyes greedily devouring the last of her hopes
Their fancy dresses and bobbing heads made her feel quite peasant
Shaken-fisted men shouting with shook heads
In the silence created by the glaring good women
Their arms crossed rolling their eyes towards the cross
Ignoring the one being crucified by their cruel sight and condemnation
A young girl danced before the crowd
To some silly song she had in her head
Claiming instead she was ensorceled by the hag
They all laughed and roared in some embracing ecstasy
The hammer fell against the table
The sacrificial ceremony had officially begun
A witch on a stake her eyes now closing so tight
Only to open again among the wood and all her lost friends tonight
How to say "I love you" in German.
I love you but not in the way you think I do. It is like a hug shared between two people who were caught up in a terrible war and they were so happy the other was still alive. 'Cause it's the kind of hug that even if no one else realizes there is a war going on.
A Broken Frame
When we could see the end crashing near
You used to say
The future made you jealous
This world might replace us
But I never could
You paint such pretty pictures
Didn't you realize
It was just me and you in them
You might have found the exit
But I am still stuck in them
This illusion remains
It won't fade away
Within mirror neurons
Confidence becomes a con
That I no longer want
A silver cross, a golden rose
Never meant to be that close
Magic practiced in reverse
Broken strings of a curse
I wish you free and also wish that for me
You used to say
The future made you jealous
This world might replace us
But I never could
You paint such pretty pictures
Didn't you realize
It was just me and you in them
You might have found the exit
But I am still stuck in them
This illusion remains
It won't fade away
Within mirror neurons
Confidence becomes a con
That I no longer want
A silver cross, a golden rose
Never meant to be that close
Magic practiced in reverse
Broken strings of a curse
I wish you free and also wish that for me
When we ruled the world
Last holiday
The streets were so empty
It was just me and you
Feeling like children skipping school
In that world
We ruled!
Our kingdom
Under those glowing stars
Of the movie screen
And those times it feels and seems
Like we're starring
In our own movie scenes
Whispering secrets
Laughing at others
"Don't look right away"
We stood in line at the cafe
I wish things
Could always be this way...
The streets were so empty
It was just me and you
Feeling like children skipping school
In that world
We ruled!
Our kingdom
Under those glowing stars
Of the movie screen
And those times it feels and seems
Like we're starring
In our own movie scenes
Whispering secrets
Laughing at others
"Don't look right away"
We stood in line at the cafe
I wish things
Could always be this way...
The Black Ribbon
that black strip of ribbon
i bought in your memory
has suddenly come to life
have you come to visit me?
we all need something to hang onto
we all need to dance in mid air
we all need to say hello sometimes
just so you know that i'm still here
in light and shadow you dance
do you like the song i have on?
so i spin and turn back again and again
just long enough to say hi and then you're gone
i want something to hang onto
i want to dance in mid air
when i die buy a black ribbon
just so you know that i'm still here
i bought in your memory
has suddenly come to life
have you come to visit me?
we all need something to hang onto
we all need to dance in mid air
we all need to say hello sometimes
just so you know that i'm still here
in light and shadow you dance
do you like the song i have on?
so i spin and turn back again and again
just long enough to say hi and then you're gone
i want something to hang onto
i want to dance in mid air
when i die buy a black ribbon
just so you know that i'm still here
Along the Edges
I don't mind them talking about it
It's just that they're talking about me
So I smile, nod, and I agree
Guess I'm just glad
They can't see inside me
So we hide among the living
Even carry on their traditions
Just feels like something's missing
To be like them
I guess that's what I'm wishing
I know it's hard to fit in
This puzzle called life
But if we stay along the edges
I think we'll be alright
I know you want to fix it
But you can't fix a fall
I know you want to fix it
But you can't fix it all
It's just that they're talking about me
So I smile, nod, and I agree
Guess I'm just glad
They can't see inside me
So we hide among the living
Even carry on their traditions
Just feels like something's missing
To be like them
I guess that's what I'm wishing
I know it's hard to fit in
This puzzle called life
But if we stay along the edges
I think we'll be alright
I know you want to fix it
But you can't fix a fall
I know you want to fix it
But you can't fix it all
Too Good To Be Through
i can't stand divisiveness
even with heart willing to fight
now that i've no loyalties
i'll enjoy seeing you go down in flames
you are so shiny and new
but you won't always be needed
by the time you fall in love
mine will already be through
you thought we had potential
truth is i'm just too good for you
now that i've told you all this
i'll enjoy seeing you go down in flames
we've escaped the city lights
shadows and stars seem more alive
i know you'd rather have truth
other people prefer the lies
even with heart willing to fight
now that i've no loyalties
i'll enjoy seeing you go down in flames
you are so shiny and new
but you won't always be needed
by the time you fall in love
mine will already be through
you thought we had potential
truth is i'm just too good for you
now that i've told you all this
i'll enjoy seeing you go down in flames
we've escaped the city lights
shadows and stars seem more alive
i know you'd rather have truth
other people prefer the lies
The 16th Line
Things are not as strange
as they once seemed to be
Things are not so strange
now between you and me
I could look into dark sky
'til the faintest stars alight
I could stare into your eyes
seeing our love still alive
Life did not become
the picture we had in mind
We are not as lost
if we just follow our sign
To grow old with you
I am yours; you are mine
This love continues
past the sixteenth line...
as they once seemed to be
Things are not so strange
now between you and me
I could look into dark sky
'til the faintest stars alight
I could stare into your eyes
seeing our love still alive
Life did not become
the picture we had in mind
We are not as lost
if we just follow our sign
To grow old with you
I am yours; you are mine
This love continues
past the sixteenth line...
Completion In You
if only you knew the way i've missed you
before these waking hours
clock strikes two forty-five then clock strikes three
the moon knows all my troubles and worries
she says i'm just silly too
i think a bit sad but not in this story
does anyone know the mystery of life
other than our basic need
to be loved and cared for by the others
you've come a long way baby; one more year
so glad it's with you sweet face
my missing heart finds completion in you
before these waking hours
clock strikes two forty-five then clock strikes three
the moon knows all my troubles and worries
she says i'm just silly too
i think a bit sad but not in this story
does anyone know the mystery of life
other than our basic need
to be loved and cared for by the others
you've come a long way baby; one more year
so glad it's with you sweet face
my missing heart finds completion in you
Dark Faerie
Wind ruled the night
when you came to visit
Such a strange girl
sitting on the corner
Casting spells and practicing magic
Your dress was this
lovely dark shade of black
Your hair at one
with all the elements
Eyes like stars perfectly in time
On the church roof
making signs and wonders
In smoke and fire
reflections on stained glass
And so began the moonlit mass
when you came to visit
Such a strange girl
sitting on the corner
Casting spells and practicing magic
Your dress was this
lovely dark shade of black
Your hair at one
with all the elements
Eyes like stars perfectly in time
On the church roof
making signs and wonders
In smoke and fire
reflections on stained glass
And so began the moonlit mass
Fall In Love Freaks
i dreamed we fell from moonbeams
dizzying spinning rainbows turn black
two angels chose to jump from the sky
we lost our wings and never looked back
years later we met again by chance
an out of focus romance soon began
and even if we lost all the past
things still go according to plan
in your arms i know i am home
we hid in sky castles and kissed
waiting for autumn to appear in your eyes
how many lives have we waited for this
maybe this time we'll continue to live
there is no reason we really have to die
above the clouds i'll tell you so
that one day we would learn to fly
dizzying spinning rainbows turn black
two angels chose to jump from the sky
we lost our wings and never looked back
years later we met again by chance
an out of focus romance soon began
and even if we lost all the past
things still go according to plan
in your arms i know i am home
we hid in sky castles and kissed
waiting for autumn to appear in your eyes
how many lives have we waited for this
maybe this time we'll continue to live
there is no reason we really have to die
above the clouds i'll tell you so
that one day we would learn to fly
A Hundred Years From Now
your lies are white as snow
i'm just not sure about it anymore
sun never set or rose as fast
in my eyes a real magic was born
we lived for those rushes
every now and then became just now
we could only run so far and fast
then we finally had to give up at last
your lines fall like snow
close my eyes i just do not know
catch me on the way down, k?
things are not really going my way
and we walked on water
saw the graves of those before
what will they think of us
a hundred years from now?
i'm just not sure about it anymore
sun never set or rose as fast
in my eyes a real magic was born
we lived for those rushes
every now and then became just now
we could only run so far and fast
then we finally had to give up at last
your lines fall like snow
close my eyes i just do not know
catch me on the way down, k?
things are not really going my way
and we walked on water
saw the graves of those before
what will they think of us
a hundred years from now?
How To Disable The Darkness
We are not alone
Everyone looked to the sky
But I could only wonder
Why?
I saw nothing
Now this world must die
Help my hands
Come together
In some long forgotten
Prayer
Teach me the words
I just can't remember
It would seem
That I lie when I ask for forgiveness
Even if you gave it
I would only relive
This little sickness
On this cross
There's no other thief to talk with
On this tree
A fragile rope between you and me
As we jump into eternity
I desire
To lie in the dust
Was it so simple
To forget about us?
I guess it's part
Of your psychology
Everyone looked to the sky
But I could only wonder
Why?
I saw nothing
Now this world must die
Help my hands
Come together
In some long forgotten
Prayer
Teach me the words
I just can't remember
It would seem
That I lie when I ask for forgiveness
Even if you gave it
I would only relive
This little sickness
On this cross
There's no other thief to talk with
On this tree
A fragile rope between you and me
As we jump into eternity
I desire
To lie in the dust
Was it so simple
To forget about us?
I guess it's part
Of your psychology
Dance Dance
oh stars will you guide me
send me a bird that i may tell
every secret, every memory
i love her whole down to every cell
the string section like wild dogs
carefree living among our ruins
of what we call a life now long forgot
i confessed all now go back to the moon
drums will guide our every step
stepped on toes will only bring laughter
this dance my love will not be one to forget
finally something like a happily ever after
the horns announce this beautiful life
king and queen know your kingdom well
armies cannot compare to one hidden knife
or unbroken winter from some witch's spell
piano keys will play until the end
i want to grow old with you my dear
die together and then begin all again
has the symphony ever sounded so clear?
send me a bird that i may tell
every secret, every memory
i love her whole down to every cell
the string section like wild dogs
carefree living among our ruins
of what we call a life now long forgot
i confessed all now go back to the moon
drums will guide our every step
stepped on toes will only bring laughter
this dance my love will not be one to forget
finally something like a happily ever after
the horns announce this beautiful life
king and queen know your kingdom well
armies cannot compare to one hidden knife
or unbroken winter from some witch's spell
piano keys will play until the end
i want to grow old with you my dear
die together and then begin all again
has the symphony ever sounded so clear?
Et Me, Brute, Tui Amicus
There's some things I wish I could forget
Like all the times we had sex.
I know it's all my fault
A beautiful somersault
That ended in tragic accident.
How many ways can a heart be bent?
I want to all over again
So when it ends it will at least be as friends.
I was your Judas
An old friend named Brutus.
Tangled puppet without a master
Except for dreams that won't let me move past her.
The intangible remains
After I've thrown every memento away.
These flawless wrists
Self-medicated we will exist
Lost childhoods we can't get back again
Broken sidewalks to get lost in
That long ago lost their newness.
Yes, it's me, your friend Brutus.
Like all the times we had sex.
I know it's all my fault
A beautiful somersault
That ended in tragic accident.
How many ways can a heart be bent?
I want to all over again
So when it ends it will at least be as friends.
I was your Judas
An old friend named Brutus.
Tangled puppet without a master
Except for dreams that won't let me move past her.
The intangible remains
After I've thrown every memento away.
These flawless wrists
Self-medicated we will exist
Lost childhoods we can't get back again
Broken sidewalks to get lost in
That long ago lost their newness.
Yes, it's me, your friend Brutus.
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That which is written within you
does not easily erase
You can run
but you'll just be running in place
In a house of mirrors
you cannot hide your face
The story unfolds
without any saving grace
We have chosen our masks
which slowly suffocate
Assault on conscience
as our mistakes replicate
Sometimes hearts shatter
other times they perfectly break
Into two pieces
I've forever lost one to fate
does not easily erase
You can run
but you'll just be running in place
In a house of mirrors
you cannot hide your face
The story unfolds
without any saving grace
We have chosen our masks
which slowly suffocate
Assault on conscience
as our mistakes replicate
Sometimes hearts shatter
other times they perfectly break
Into two pieces
I've forever lost one to fate
lovekinesis
owls at my window
seems to know something i don't know
they cry and scratch
strike my vein like a match
our magical spells
worked so well now they're just fail
was it love
or simply candles and spells
i see the moon's light
used to make everything all right
now it just burns
balance restored as midnight returns
finding me and finding you
so apart in lives so true
was it love
or simply daggers and words
i throw you all away
every last memory of the day
closed eyes at sunrise
the spirit is willing but carrion cries
not even the crow
will forever linger 'round my soul
was it love at all
or simply sorcery and psi
seems to know something i don't know
they cry and scratch
strike my vein like a match
our magical spells
worked so well now they're just fail
was it love
or simply candles and spells
i see the moon's light
used to make everything all right
now it just burns
balance restored as midnight returns
finding me and finding you
so apart in lives so true
was it love
or simply daggers and words
i throw you all away
every last memory of the day
closed eyes at sunrise
the spirit is willing but carrion cries
not even the crow
will forever linger 'round my soul
was it love at all
or simply sorcery and psi
Clear Lip Gloss
I.
I saw the stars shine bright
within you.
Then they fell,
no wish came true.
Such dim reflections
we cast in glass.
You're most beautiful
just wearing lip gloss.
I swear
this will be the last time.
You will stay
even if you know the cost.
You will stay
behind your grave.
You will stay
and think you're not lost.
II.
Hard to find my way
when dreaming in place.
There's no tomorrow
when lost in yesterday.
I know the lies
crafted from belief.
Surfaces are calm
as storms rage beneath.
Does it matter
who won or lost,
When the dead
are not at peace?
I know you want
me to wake up
But I just need
a little more sleep.
I saw the stars shine bright
within you.
Then they fell,
no wish came true.
Such dim reflections
we cast in glass.
You're most beautiful
just wearing lip gloss.
I swear
this will be the last time.
You will stay
even if you know the cost.
You will stay
behind your grave.
You will stay
and think you're not lost.
II.
Hard to find my way
when dreaming in place.
There's no tomorrow
when lost in yesterday.
I know the lies
crafted from belief.
Surfaces are calm
as storms rage beneath.
Does it matter
who won or lost,
When the dead
are not at peace?
I know you want
me to wake up
But I just need
a little more sleep.
Silver Glitter Eyeshadow
i toss my dreams in the air
letting them fall to me as i sleep
this alternate world i prefer
except that you're ever rarely there
in that distant land
where secrets i have i keep
safe from the waiting world
and waking eyes that stare and glare
*
if i were ever to lose my way
i know that you would soon appear
with glowing eyes amidst the trees
near the shining gate you call me to
i would trust and know its real
if my heart had no trace of fear
your eyes in silver glitterance
i drift to sleep and dream of you
letting them fall to me as i sleep
this alternate world i prefer
except that you're ever rarely there
in that distant land
where secrets i have i keep
safe from the waiting world
and waking eyes that stare and glare
*
if i were ever to lose my way
i know that you would soon appear
with glowing eyes amidst the trees
near the shining gate you call me to
i would trust and know its real
if my heart had no trace of fear
your eyes in silver glitterance
i drift to sleep and dream of you
Shattered Faith
beliefs are so fragile
they shatter so easily
do you believe in god?
do you believe in me?
if so just wait a while
for personal tragedy
denying your own faith
attack that in others
soul smothers spirit
forgets your own mother
leaving you to fight
against spring lovers
left with barren soil
and a false start
if i began to believe
would we grow apart?
maybe i'm deceived
of all that is heart
they shatter so easily
do you believe in god?
do you believe in me?
if so just wait a while
for personal tragedy
denying your own faith
attack that in others
soul smothers spirit
forgets your own mother
leaving you to fight
against spring lovers
left with barren soil
and a false start
if i began to believe
would we grow apart?
maybe i'm deceived
of all that is heart
The last day of a white Christmas
A week in my life without you
It is doubtful you will be missed
So many shades of snow
But they all melt like our last kiss
Faded in memory of mind
Faded like these old jeans of mine
I decided to stop trying to find
Life in a glass or at the end of a line
We can run from our problems
To end up back in the same places
This should only happen to them
But sometimes we lose our own graces
This mirror makes me look ugly
With all things being equal
That is not really the true me
My mirror will now be other people
It is within you I will see myself
So sick my love of being all alone
Without you I am nothing else
Wait no more I am finally home
It is doubtful you will be missed
So many shades of snow
But they all melt like our last kiss
Faded in memory of mind
Faded like these old jeans of mine
I decided to stop trying to find
Life in a glass or at the end of a line
We can run from our problems
To end up back in the same places
This should only happen to them
But sometimes we lose our own graces
This mirror makes me look ugly
With all things being equal
That is not really the true me
My mirror will now be other people
It is within you I will see myself
So sick my love of being all alone
Without you I am nothing else
Wait no more I am finally home
The Wake
At the rosary my mind wanders to the flowers, the casket, anything but me
Not that I ever wished to be absent just that I truly did not care to see
The empty shell you left behind I had only seen you last week
These affairs are for the living and not the dead and the living now weep
It is for the ones closest to me that were closest to you that I am now here
And in the calmness I gain from channeling them I felt you stood near
You still exist, you will always be missed, I just hope you stayed for a while
The serenity spread for from the front row in your memory were laughter and smiles
Not that I ever wished to be absent just that I truly did not care to see
The empty shell you left behind I had only seen you last week
These affairs are for the living and not the dead and the living now weep
It is for the ones closest to me that were closest to you that I am now here
And in the calmness I gain from channeling them I felt you stood near
You still exist, you will always be missed, I just hope you stayed for a while
The serenity spread for from the front row in your memory were laughter and smiles
Hourglasses In A House Of Mirrors
There might not be a reason to stay awake..
How ironic the dying among the living must be.
Would not sleep allow me temporary escape?
So why continue to click and type when I see...
My browser spinning across the world wide web,
Entangled thoughts must remain in slavery,
Or do their conscience chains encompass me instead?
Not even my heart wants to be left alone with me.
Sleep is more than the sands slipping..
Through hourglasses and dreams I desire.
So chamomile and distraction I am sipping
To avoid these awkward moments of mire...
When eyes first closed still see I'm not in the clear,
A house of mirrors revealing all that is dire,
I might be all alone but even I am not here.
How ironic the dying among the living must be.
Would not sleep allow me temporary escape?
So why continue to click and type when I see...
My browser spinning across the world wide web,
Entangled thoughts must remain in slavery,
Or do their conscience chains encompass me instead?
Not even my heart wants to be left alone with me.
Sleep is more than the sands slipping..
Through hourglasses and dreams I desire.
So chamomile and distraction I am sipping
To avoid these awkward moments of mire...
When eyes first closed still see I'm not in the clear,
A house of mirrors revealing all that is dire,
I might be all alone but even I am not here.
Forestia
I shall never leave this home
where our tree palace once stood.
I shall always keep your memory
of all that was good.
War has fingers of flame
that touched more than the trees.
Long after battles are over
the heart remains under siege.
Elfin song sung to roses
not even ashes remain at odds.
Elven wine for the spirit
your own remains on this lot.
A single blade of grass
crept through the concrete.
I named it after you
our healing now complete.
where our tree palace once stood.
I shall always keep your memory
of all that was good.
War has fingers of flame
that touched more than the trees.
Long after battles are over
the heart remains under siege.
Elfin song sung to roses
not even ashes remain at odds.
Elven wine for the spirit
your own remains on this lot.
A single blade of grass
crept through the concrete.
I named it after you
our healing now complete.
Like the fires we lit to guide us out the storm drain
We snuck in the fenced area behind the old folks home
With a sense of adventure we made our torches
They would not even last the first leg of our journey
The movies make the wilds seem so tame
The wilds make the movies seem so lame
Would we still see those water bugs that creeped me out?
Nights descent dimmed the vertical slits
Voices on street level became haunting
None in the Cave Clan dared call out for help
We continued our mission with not one welp
Desperation set in but so did silence and urgency
Thunder threatened to drown us
Luckily the rain waited for us to reach the end
Of our unknown destination near the drive-in theater
We reveled at being explorers thanking the Creator
Then we took the overland trails back home soaking wet
With a sense of adventure we made our torches
They would not even last the first leg of our journey
The movies make the wilds seem so tame
The wilds make the movies seem so lame
Would we still see those water bugs that creeped me out?
Nights descent dimmed the vertical slits
Voices on street level became haunting
None in the Cave Clan dared call out for help
We continued our mission with not one welp
Desperation set in but so did silence and urgency
Thunder threatened to drown us
Luckily the rain waited for us to reach the end
Of our unknown destination near the drive-in theater
We reveled at being explorers thanking the Creator
Then we took the overland trails back home soaking wet
I Will Not Live Past Thirty-Three The Same Age That Jesus Died But Jesus Died To Save The World I Just Want To Die To Save Myself
i'm finally out the forest
but still caught up in the snow
i will sing when i am lost
somehow finding the next place to go
so many pretty shades of green
but i am blinded by the white
where the old me was last seen
this year i did lose my life
the years have passed us by
but its not too late to live today
so many unanswered whys
but we know the answers anyways
what is under my dirty fingernails
my thumb now hurts but it's OK
i am finally sick of all the fail
and these silly little plays
but still caught up in the snow
i will sing when i am lost
somehow finding the next place to go
so many pretty shades of green
but i am blinded by the white
where the old me was last seen
this year i did lose my life
the years have passed us by
but its not too late to live today
so many unanswered whys
but we know the answers anyways
what is under my dirty fingernails
my thumb now hurts but it's OK
i am finally sick of all the fail
and these silly little plays
Cloudshill Keeps It Real
I do not know of any flame
That has ever pierced the clouds
Life is more than just a game
And at the end we will bow
But before that we will live
No matter the obstacle
And while we live we must give
Problems can all be tackled
By relying on friends
And relying on strangers
Honest wishes and hands
Will take us out of danger
That has ever pierced the clouds
Life is more than just a game
And at the end we will bow
But before that we will live
No matter the obstacle
And while we live we must give
Problems can all be tackled
By relying on friends
And relying on strangers
Honest wishes and hands
Will take us out of danger
Farewell and safe journey Tempest Smith
We stand outside always looking in.
We could not sacrifice ourselves
Just to fit in.
No one ever knew us as a friend.
Just not like everyone else
Is that a sin?
They cannot stand our blasphemies
But do not mind their own,
Stop please.
Maybe we all got lost within the trees
Searching for a home
Amidst the fallen leaves.
Who made them God and cast us out?
It's hard not to listen
When they shout.
Cares of the world we can do without
Like black silk ribbon
In the wind cast about.
We could not sacrifice ourselves
Just to fit in.
No one ever knew us as a friend.
Just not like everyone else
Is that a sin?
They cannot stand our blasphemies
But do not mind their own,
Stop please.
Maybe we all got lost within the trees
Searching for a home
Amidst the fallen leaves.
Who made them God and cast us out?
It's hard not to listen
When they shout.
Cares of the world we can do without
Like black silk ribbon
In the wind cast about.
Coraline In Sixteen Lines
The world is not at all it seems
Surprises lie in empty spaces
Pay close attention to the seams
That hold together happy faces
It is not impossible to relate I know
To my family but I feel so lonely
In a garden something special grows
Though no one knows so it's just for me
I would rather share what I am thinking
But who would listen so the flowers wither
In this social isolation that has me sinking
Still I will travel from there to hither
And find my friends or let them find me
A cat, some ghosts, and people even stranger
With those eyes how can they see
We will do well as long as we do not linger
Surprises lie in empty spaces
Pay close attention to the seams
That hold together happy faces
It is not impossible to relate I know
To my family but I feel so lonely
In a garden something special grows
Though no one knows so it's just for me
I would rather share what I am thinking
But who would listen so the flowers wither
In this social isolation that has me sinking
Still I will travel from there to hither
And find my friends or let them find me
A cat, some ghosts, and people even stranger
With those eyes how can they see
We will do well as long as we do not linger
Vasaris: A Primrose Tale
My year does not begin 'til February.
The year is made for lovers
And I am in love...
And will always be.
Even if the snow and ice moon
Shall not shine in fullness
We will find purity...
And be innocent once again.
In our garden escapes we await
The promise of spring
And our hearts ease...
As the first rose blooms.
Our aspirations do not end with the stars
We light our candles
With spirits aflame...
The whole world is illuminated.
The year is made for lovers
And I am in love...
And will always be.
Even if the snow and ice moon
Shall not shine in fullness
We will find purity...
And be innocent once again.
In our garden escapes we await
The promise of spring
And our hearts ease...
As the first rose blooms.
Our aspirations do not end with the stars
We light our candles
With spirits aflame...
The whole world is illuminated.
Our Song
i sing a song for all
like the stumbling baby deer
unsure of its footing in this new world
i find my voice and love conquers all even fear
i sing a song for you
maybe i heard it in the stars
but is that not what we all are
no i heard it in your heart it is not so far
i sing a song for me
like no song i have sung before
a love like this cannot be trapped anymore
i breathe in all the magic of this world and all of it's lore
i sing a song for the song itself
the world has given it to me and i to you
no where else can we be like birds with wings
except for the wings that are the emotions we sing
like the stumbling baby deer
unsure of its footing in this new world
i find my voice and love conquers all even fear
i sing a song for you
maybe i heard it in the stars
but is that not what we all are
no i heard it in your heart it is not so far
i sing a song for me
like no song i have sung before
a love like this cannot be trapped anymore
i breathe in all the magic of this world and all of it's lore
i sing a song for the song itself
the world has given it to me and i to you
no where else can we be like birds with wings
except for the wings that are the emotions we sing
The Pain You Feel Is The Love You Withhold
We walk the world as if we were without sight.
With reaching hands that seek a wall,
a shoulder, or another hand.
We fight the darkness but never turn on a light.
Tiptoe, run, or crawl we all fall
Forgetting we soon land.
We are never too young to hurt, never too old to learn,
Never too cold to love another soul,
Even if we feel so alone.
We can take life as a gift, too afraid to unwrap,
The pain we feel is the love we withhold
and now you know.
With reaching hands that seek a wall,
a shoulder, or another hand.
We fight the darkness but never turn on a light.
Tiptoe, run, or crawl we all fall
Forgetting we soon land.
We are never too young to hurt, never too old to learn,
Never too cold to love another soul,
Even if we feel so alone.
We can take life as a gift, too afraid to unwrap,
The pain we feel is the love we withhold
and now you know.
...
There is no need to fear
that I'd rage at your lies
All you ever said
well it is no surprise
But what I really
cannot understand
Why bother saying them
when you could have ran?
that I'd rage at your lies
All you ever said
well it is no surprise
But what I really
cannot understand
Why bother saying them
when you could have ran?
Malice In Wonderland
I wouldn't have chased
farther than I could yell
Couldn't you see
that I had already fell
Down a rabbit-hole
fracturing heart and soul
We are all mad here
knowing all that we know
farther than I could yell
Couldn't you see
that I had already fell
Down a rabbit-hole
fracturing heart and soul
We are all mad here
knowing all that we know
Forced and Full of Cliches (I Didn't Want To But I Had To)
You have held me hostage
for over twenty years
Now I'm free
from all your fucking fears
I saw the world in blue
then slowly closed my eyes
Lost myself
somewhere in your lies
Such pretty pictures
painted by all we wished
Now that I'm gone
I wonder if I'll be missed?
We always knew
this love would never die
Now it must live
across the great divide
I used to hope
you'd hear my call for help
Now all my hope
is finally for myself
All this time
asking you to come back
Now I'm gone
just like that.
for over twenty years
Now I'm free
from all your fucking fears
I saw the world in blue
then slowly closed my eyes
Lost myself
somewhere in your lies
Such pretty pictures
painted by all we wished
Now that I'm gone
I wonder if I'll be missed?
We always knew
this love would never die
Now it must live
across the great divide
I used to hope
you'd hear my call for help
Now all my hope
is finally for myself
All this time
asking you to come back
Now I'm gone
just like that.
Holding Pattern
world please just stop for a moment
i was hoping you wouldn't have noticed me
not today but maybe this pain is an omen
i give up, whatever you say i will agree
let us do something -- i do not know?
something we have never tried before
i will say go for it but we will never get around to it, so
let us not plan anything any more
i know things will change
but we will keep on waiting all things the same
i know things are strange
but there is more to life than all these games
i was hoping you wouldn't have noticed me
not today but maybe this pain is an omen
i give up, whatever you say i will agree
let us do something -- i do not know?
something we have never tried before
i will say go for it but we will never get around to it, so
let us not plan anything any more
i know things will change
but we will keep on waiting all things the same
i know things are strange
but there is more to life than all these games
e-dating
meeting her on the forum he was all impressed
dropping more than his guard, she her dress
oh it was innocent at first then little
by little things started to seem more riddle
was it love or was it all fake and how
can this continue so far away but so now
part of his life and when they had a tiff
he would send a pm saying she was missed
desperately clicking because he could not
wait any longer to check his e-mail account
every time though she would quickly write back
and they continued to e-date till the fact
that he found out her love was not real
but it was too late he had already been reeled
then it became much worse of a bitter feud
when he finally found out she was a dude
dropping more than his guard, she her dress
oh it was innocent at first then little
by little things started to seem more riddle
was it love or was it all fake and how
can this continue so far away but so now
part of his life and when they had a tiff
he would send a pm saying she was missed
desperately clicking because he could not
wait any longer to check his e-mail account
every time though she would quickly write back
and they continued to e-date till the fact
that he found out her love was not real
but it was too late he had already been reeled
then it became much worse of a bitter feud
when he finally found out she was a dude
The Bullet
Alone he looked to others having fun.
Never stopping until the mission was done.
It was just pretend of course for he had no friends.
So life was an adventure and every place a secret den.
One had opium and soldiers who never would heal quite right.
Others had people who were dying of fear but appear happy and alright.
There were even more who made you feel guilty but just wanted your gold.
And finally even those who just want you to do every single thing you were told.
No there were no friends to be made among such people whom he could not relate.
Until he realized he needed healing, felt guilty, and was rather quite afraid.
And was also listening to the wrong people who had no better example.
So like the running of the bulls he ran to not get trampled.
Before realizing he was the bull and made others run.
So little by little he gave up and got a loaded gun.
Placing it to his head he pulled...so typical.
Then he became the bullet...free of all.
Never stopping until the mission was done.
It was just pretend of course for he had no friends.
So life was an adventure and every place a secret den.
One had opium and soldiers who never would heal quite right.
Others had people who were dying of fear but appear happy and alright.
There were even more who made you feel guilty but just wanted your gold.
And finally even those who just want you to do every single thing you were told.
No there were no friends to be made among such people whom he could not relate.
Until he realized he needed healing, felt guilty, and was rather quite afraid.
And was also listening to the wrong people who had no better example.
So like the running of the bulls he ran to not get trampled.
Before realizing he was the bull and made others run.
So little by little he gave up and got a loaded gun.
Placing it to his head he pulled...so typical.
Then he became the bullet...free of all.
Kate
we have commanded our fate
like napoleon on green fields
i have obsessed over you kate
unlocking so many of your seals
you twist your mouth
and it makes me want to scream
when the birds have all flown south
you still fly over what was once green
there is more beauty and life
in just one feather from your wing
than all the stars of every night
and all the suns in all the worlds seen
and unseen
unbroken and innocent
these people could never master you
torment went through and helped reinvent
every good thing that made you come anew
then you cried and sang
laughed and lived like people tend to do
keeping everyone back with your hands
until within the dance you found the real you
somewhere in your secret garden
everything has started coming to life
you used to wonder when it would all begin
now my friend if that would be alright?
like napoleon on green fields
i have obsessed over you kate
unlocking so many of your seals
you twist your mouth
and it makes me want to scream
when the birds have all flown south
you still fly over what was once green
there is more beauty and life
in just one feather from your wing
than all the stars of every night
and all the suns in all the worlds seen
and unseen
unbroken and innocent
these people could never master you
torment went through and helped reinvent
every good thing that made you come anew
then you cried and sang
laughed and lived like people tend to do
keeping everyone back with your hands
until within the dance you found the real you
somewhere in your secret garden
everything has started coming to life
you used to wonder when it would all begin
now my friend if that would be alright?
Beautiful Things
We are the world in grey
on just another cloudy day.
With weary eyes turned to the sky
then away to something deep inside.
Everything will be OK.
Even sunshine is on its way
but there is still much to like
about rainy days when we stay inside.
Others dance in the rain
or on graves it's all the same.
We live and die but in between
is when happens such beautiful things.
Even if I was to go away
I shall always treasure these days.
Even when I become unseen
I'll keep this vision and dream.
on just another cloudy day.
With weary eyes turned to the sky
then away to something deep inside.
Everything will be OK.
Even sunshine is on its way
but there is still much to like
about rainy days when we stay inside.
Others dance in the rain
or on graves it's all the same.
We live and die but in between
is when happens such beautiful things.
Even if I was to go away
I shall always treasure these days.
Even when I become unseen
I'll keep this vision and dream.
Paying Back The Birds
i sang to the birds today
i was just happy that way
tonight i will sing to the lawn
and dance till the moon is gone
it will not matter how i sound
for nothing could ever be wrong
when we allow our souls to sing
so safe inside our unbroken ring
this is how things should be
all world's happiness inside of me
fullness of heart we shall pursue
and the only thing missing is you!
i was just happy that way
tonight i will sing to the lawn
and dance till the moon is gone
it will not matter how i sound
for nothing could ever be wrong
when we allow our souls to sing
so safe inside our unbroken ring
this is how things should be
all world's happiness inside of me
fullness of heart we shall pursue
and the only thing missing is you!
A Kind Of Love That Does Not Give But Takes
my heart is striped
they are really bars
nothing feels right
not even old scars
my eyes are black
they see nothing real
my system is hacked
i can no longer deal
my skin is white
stay away from the day
alone in the night
but somehow it's OK
my mind is trapped
by the same thought
i now feel attacked
nevermind i forgot
when heroes get hurt
i need you to rescue me
afraid you'll desert
i already gave up on me
because i can't connect
i'll make up situations
roll my eyes act upset
create more complications
then expect you to fix
everything that i broke
if you love me do this
even as you slowly choke
they are really bars
nothing feels right
not even old scars
my eyes are black
they see nothing real
my system is hacked
i can no longer deal
my skin is white
stay away from the day
alone in the night
but somehow it's OK
my mind is trapped
by the same thought
i now feel attacked
nevermind i forgot
when heroes get hurt
i need you to rescue me
afraid you'll desert
i already gave up on me
because i can't connect
i'll make up situations
roll my eyes act upset
create more complications
then expect you to fix
everything that i broke
if you love me do this
even as you slowly choke
White Light
rough stones cast my way
form the path i follow in life
this heart is only made of clay
shape it or break it you hold the knife
i'd rather have one true friend
than a thousand fake ones
will you stay till the very end?
i'll go first and drop our guns
when worlds form against us
i'll stand by and believe
and when all becomes stardust
our love will still bleed
beyond the stars we'll find a home
everything will be alright
you will never be alone
i bathe you in white light
form the path i follow in life
this heart is only made of clay
shape it or break it you hold the knife
i'd rather have one true friend
than a thousand fake ones
will you stay till the very end?
i'll go first and drop our guns
when worlds form against us
i'll stand by and believe
and when all becomes stardust
our love will still bleed
beyond the stars we'll find a home
everything will be alright
you will never be alone
i bathe you in white light
/wrist
i have never seen the sunshine
since such a long time ago
there's some things i haven't told you
but you will never know
it's possible to keep on loving
even if you are no longer there
but whatever
it's the end of the affair
within your eyes reflection
i saw your souls perfection
it brought tears to my eyes
to finally realize
i miss the cherry blossoms
and am jealous of the star's view
the love we have lost since
and they still shine down on you
i will die all anime like
X_x
x_X
X_o
i will die four thousand times
slash wrist
out comes heart-shaped-candy-lines
within your eyes reflection
i saw your souls perfection
it brought tears to my eyes
to finally realize
[quote]you can't go on fighting
it's only love after all[/quote]
since such a long time ago
there's some things i haven't told you
but you will never know
it's possible to keep on loving
even if you are no longer there
but whatever
it's the end of the affair
within your eyes reflection
i saw your souls perfection
it brought tears to my eyes
to finally realize
i miss the cherry blossoms
and am jealous of the star's view
the love we have lost since
and they still shine down on you
i will die all anime like
X_x
x_X
X_o
i will die four thousand times
slash wrist
out comes heart-shaped-candy-lines
within your eyes reflection
i saw your souls perfection
it brought tears to my eyes
to finally realize
[quote]you can't go on fighting
it's only love after all[/quote]
Princess Died
Jan Dark came to me by moonlight in flowing robes of white
with a fast fashion wearing Parisian cosmopolitan girl flavor
under starless skies traveling the thousand lands by candlelight
on a higher calling her blood rose lips recite this prayer
"those flames do not scare me my life is not what it used to be
so i am going to do everything that you did not expect from me
call me a witch and cut me off in traffic covering it up all
in the last day and hour my return will save a world from fall"
missed gazes by shallow eyes that always looked into distance
piercing arrows never flew truer from another finger or bow
huntress of the shadow and light reaching us by moonbeam
a day when every star falls worlds will be lit in her eternal glow
ancient bloodlines crafted a destiny of all of humanity's sorrow
a goddess born of the purest element mistaken for a heretic
a princess reborn destined to be our patron saint of loneliness
in a dying world which will come to life under her blessed caress
a heart like Artemis breaks times infinity every time we suffer
a torch song for all of humanity and those lost and broken lovers
drops of crimson and clear shatter every real and imagined fear
the moon forever near, will always understand, will always hear
the price offered a soul bartered she was willing a hundred fold
dying alone suffering bled cut black heart suffocate poison glue
to suffer through every life lived a tragedy in every story told
dying alone unable to love those most near and no one ever knew
with a fast fashion wearing Parisian cosmopolitan girl flavor
under starless skies traveling the thousand lands by candlelight
on a higher calling her blood rose lips recite this prayer
"those flames do not scare me my life is not what it used to be
so i am going to do everything that you did not expect from me
call me a witch and cut me off in traffic covering it up all
in the last day and hour my return will save a world from fall"
missed gazes by shallow eyes that always looked into distance
piercing arrows never flew truer from another finger or bow
huntress of the shadow and light reaching us by moonbeam
a day when every star falls worlds will be lit in her eternal glow
ancient bloodlines crafted a destiny of all of humanity's sorrow
a goddess born of the purest element mistaken for a heretic
a princess reborn destined to be our patron saint of loneliness
in a dying world which will come to life under her blessed caress
a heart like Artemis breaks times infinity every time we suffer
a torch song for all of humanity and those lost and broken lovers
drops of crimson and clear shatter every real and imagined fear
the moon forever near, will always understand, will always hear
the price offered a soul bartered she was willing a hundred fold
dying alone suffering bled cut black heart suffocate poison glue
to suffer through every life lived a tragedy in every story told
dying alone unable to love those most near and no one ever knew
Suicidal Romance FTW IWTD
when this feeling creeps up time and again
it is to you i turn to my friend
even if we can never truly know one another
we are the only ones who ever understood each other
this world might not have anything to offer us
but your friendship my lover is always more than enough
turning away my handprint remains on the glass
always looking out from within this window won't last
this madness is on its last leg and this war within
about to surrender but if we die together it's pure win
show me your cuts ill show you mine
we are just a little bit out of time
no matter how the story ends
i will rewrite it into happiness
control my own pain open me up like a letter
will we ever be able to get rid of it altogether?
you take me to the highest place surrounded by the world
and as we fall so fast in love the world becomes a blur
you have given me wings and now that i soar
it is for you that i have lived and will die for
turning away my handprint remains on the glass
always looking out from within this window won't last
this madness is on its last leg and this war within
about to surrender but if we die together it's pure win
show me your cuts ill show you mine
we are just a little bit out of time
no matter how the story ends
i will rewrite it into happiness
it is to you i turn to my friend
even if we can never truly know one another
we are the only ones who ever understood each other
this world might not have anything to offer us
but your friendship my lover is always more than enough
turning away my handprint remains on the glass
always looking out from within this window won't last
this madness is on its last leg and this war within
about to surrender but if we die together it's pure win
show me your cuts ill show you mine
we are just a little bit out of time
no matter how the story ends
i will rewrite it into happiness
control my own pain open me up like a letter
will we ever be able to get rid of it altogether?
you take me to the highest place surrounded by the world
and as we fall so fast in love the world becomes a blur
you have given me wings and now that i soar
it is for you that i have lived and will die for
turning away my handprint remains on the glass
always looking out from within this window won't last
this madness is on its last leg and this war within
about to surrender but if we die together it's pure win
show me your cuts ill show you mine
we are just a little bit out of time
no matter how the story ends
i will rewrite it into happiness
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