Just Another MySpace Suicide

i knew this girl that died
no one listened when she cried
how many times before had she tried?
just another myspace suicide

you say no one loves you or understands
you know that we love you
we are your biggest fans
so please do not die for you will be missed
from my friends list

your other friends are all fake
your family does not really care
we understand the hate and heartbreak
we understand the despair how it's all unfair

today you are having such a bad time
in your mind it's already rehearsed
so turn on your cam and come online
to die for us we are on your side
just another myspace suicide

Will I Find Myself? I Do Not Know.

if you must...take it all away!
just leave to me my pencils and my ink.
trying to find myself within lines,
dying, losing my mind, trying not to think.

butterflies spilling out
of my pencil...fluttering to the floor.
leaving a sharp point
but my head is as dull as it was before.

i try on many faces
as if capturing the right feeling
will somehow...be my muse.
looking back at myself from the ceiling.

it's not what we lost
but more of what we never had.
writing every letter but still empty-headed,
so it's stabbity, stab...stab, stab.

The body is a shell disintegrated upon spiritual ascension

They say the road to hell
is paved with good intentions
is traveled quite well

Some of what preachers tell
is the devil's invention
they say the road to hell

Some have lies for sale
religion as a profession
is traveled quite well

The peal of a church bell
a confession to mention
they say the road to hell

Some on the roadside fell
without paying much attention
is traveled quite well

Some believe it is all fairytale
it is outside their comprehension
they say the road to hell
is traveled quite well

Heart of the Beast

I once walked through the night
and took all it had to give

I took my final vows
and now I'll forever live

I once walked through the stars
and came upon a dying beast

It asked for a bit of my life
whatever I could give even the least

So I gave her my heart
and traveled on my way

Now I can't feel anything
I'll never forget that day

Until one night at the grave
she appeared to me again

How beautiful she was
perfect and she promised to mend

My broken heart this day
I asked how she could

Without losing hers
I didn't think I should

She promised to make
me and her one together

Now we both feel the same
we will forever